As it turns out, early October marked five years since I began this blog…! Naturally it makes me uncomfortable to look at those early posts but the less text-based projects, like my 80s library music mix, still work pretty well as far as I care. I wanted to post ~something~ to mark this occasion but I got way too caught up in other stuff.
I’m going to get honest with you all now; 2021 feels like another of my most difficult years. That’s the main reason, besides Seahorses’ bizarrely extended cycle, that I posted so much less for these past 11 months.
Beyond that, my difficulty with focusing on new compositions continues from where it began in 2019, as much as I sorely miss letting out my inspiration. As usual, I struggle with finishing my handful of exciting pre-existing drafts too, whether it’s adding to them or the long and boring post-production.
As I mentioned last post, I lost a good chunk of my confidence as a writer. I feel more nervous than ever to express my musical opinions and observations, for various reasons. I feel naive and outmatched, including by writings that technically bother me. I guess it’s no surprise this happened as I was turning 21.
Don’t get me wrong, I still have some plans for this blog, I just feel reluctant to promise too much thanks to how behind I became, not to mention my anxiety over the ominous environmental news that stalks us. Plus, if/once I do get more creatively active, I would want to focus on my own music.
Mixes remain my least stressful and most dependable pet-project. I have several ideas for these leftover from my more active days, and I’d still love to get cracking on them; I just need the mood to strike me.
I hope that this blog brought you some interesting discoveries or listening pleasure over these years, for it’s many flaws. I might call this time a hiatus, but posts will happen when they happen.